Currently Listening Love By The Beatles -- Eleanor Rigby -- see related

xanga,

wow ..
i haven't updated in awhile.
but here's what's up.
SCHOOL!

   I can't stand it anymore. I feel like a failure. I just received 3 failure warnings in the mail on Friday. I feel that all 3 of them are bullshit. Humanities I is a joke. All I do in that class is sit there and giggle my head off and take notes. I thought there was no harm in that if you do your homework and pass your tests, right? Boy .. was I ever wrong! I took 3 tests in that class .. and I failed 1. I do all my homework in that class. Is it not neat enough for her standards? But *some kids* can fuck around and sleep and she does not do a damn thing about it! Brr .. I can't stand it.
   Another one is Religion. I missed a couple assignments .. so what? She had asked me to make them up. And I did. Even without question. I missed a fucking outline .. so she takes -10 points off my grade because of an outline? Give me a fucking break already! The next one really got me fired up. British Literature .. I don't understand it at all. I'm pretty sure it is clear to the teacher too. We are doing Macbeth right now .. and I don't have a fucking clue what it all means. I took a test on Thursday for my teacher [on Macbeth] and I thought I did semi-well. I DIDN'T GET A FUCKING BREAK!
   The following day he calls me up to his desk to show me the beautiful 20% I got. I made it pretty damn clear I have no idea what is going on! And he goes to me "Ali .. this isn't good. You didn't even turn your summer book reports in either. You are pretty near failing. And I think even if you do hand the book reports in, you don't have a chance of passing." What a teacher, ain't? I see he has much faith in me. Faith in me to fail.
   And on top of that, I have 4567857394654654 other things to do. And if I get another failure warning in the mail [and I'm most certain I will] this week, no christmas dance for me on Saturday. That's just dandy! Dhfdghdfgfd gosh I'm going to have a breakdown. I just needed to vent that out. Just to prove life is unfair and I always get shit on. Later.

<3,
Ali.